"My Particular Life"

        So its like this. I have missed out on so much in my life!!!!!!!!! I know it is for the right reasons. But when someone tells me how I am supposed to deal with it, I get exasperated!!
         I began to have children at an early age Geez.... I was like 20 yrs. young. I took the responsibilities cause I've always wanted a family. I love my family. I loved it then and I love it even more now. I am sooo proud of who they are all becoming!!!! They are smart young people who will effect change in this world of ours.
         My struggle as of the last 5 years is that I have had to work and live out of town to provide. So one family and 2 residences on the same income.... My mind and body sometimes feels like it will stretch no further... I do break down and cry at times. But I know this will get me no where and then I just man-up!! I miss my children's  successes (small or big),  b-days, celebrations, sports, performances, dinners, their living. The "good nights" and "good mornings", the "you can do its", and the  "its gonna be okays.
         I feel like life can never be more painful to a person than it has been to me. I still struggle to do my part everyday as best I can... Sometimes the longing for my children and wife becomes so unbearable I just want to give up but I wont...
         People say, "well why dont you just go home and live with your family". I say "Okay, but when they need help financially to get to where they want to get in this life where should I get the money from". Funny how silent it gets!!!
         Now don"t get me wrong, I live this life of mine only through love. I couldn't do it otherwise!!!
         Sooooooooo, what I am saying if that you want to give me advice then be sure that you can give it to me from my position and not yours because really it just helps me hurt that much more.......!
         Boy, I can write to you forever. (whoever you are) This is a bit stress relieving. I'll will write again soon.